Have nobody to love any longer

There are so many nuances to this separation.. it never feils to stop me in my tracks as I truly make a holehearted effort here to move on and get on with my life. Walking home tonight I had a realization. I have noone to love any longer?
Yes yes, there are mums and pets and God and friends and and... But my love is no
longer wanted. My man has left me hung and dry. And my love is not returned any longer. He's no longer in love with me. He does not want me. And I am now alone again. Different this time. I like being alone. But this was not vulentary loneliness. This was not the life I had in my mind and heart at all.
And when I move I will wake up alone. And one day I will meet him holding his new girl. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about any of it. Can this really be true? Is there absolutely nothing I can do?
(Besides torturing myself with these no-brainer questions, that I in vain pretend have an "out of the box" solution to it, when in fact I'm just dilutional..)

Moving House but can't let go

I've found a new home. A sweet little corner house. Three floors, and a great bedroom. Scarily steep stairs and a TV. Haven't had a TV since January.
But packing up here is not happening. I am procrastinating. Cannot bring myself to
start moving. It's the third time I move on this island, but the first where I separate everything into his and hers. And the move itself was not my choice, I had no say in it. What's mine, what's yours. And you not being here, makes all those choices very hard. I don't want you to ever think I would take something out of greed. It hurts to go through all off our life together, it's as if I finally have no choice but to accept the truth. Who can believe there is hope, when I only bring one toothbrush to the little corner house.

Post closure confusion

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight

you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
you could mean everything to me

From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?